| teaRs welled up while i was playing gan3 jie1... i knew i couldn't... but i can't help it... how would u feel if u know the dizi soloist flopped foR one paRagRaph and didn't even play the otheR!? fRom tt moment.. i knew it wasn't meant foR us to be...
i cRied...
afteR the Results was announced..
i cRied again...
i neveR knew jh was cRying foR me at the stall seats below...
i went down... basically ignoRed all HC ppl.. saw yunying and yingwei smiling happily.. i just walked off.. saw ningyi... i tuRned back... didn't even botheRed to look foR jh..
i didn't know what to do...
i just cRied...
cRied..
and cRied..
peishan accompanied me thRoughout..
when i was feeling slightly betteR, the senioRs initiated the tj cheeR... the thought of disappointing the senioRs...
i cRied again...
huibee saw me... came oveR...
cRied...
tuRned to eunice(tj)...
hugged and cRied..
tuRned to Rozie..
hugged and cRied..
tuRned to sutee..
hugged and cRied..
*cRied*
we failed ouR senioRs foR a thiRd time..
i know i shouldn't...
but i can't help but hate the dizi soloist...
why did they let heR play in the fiRst place?
she is the 2nd woRst playeR in dizi...
then she flopped so badly..
FIVE dizi she bRought along..
3 of them di2 mo4 po4...
1 of them neveR even paste the di2 mo4...
the last dizi is the yin1 bu4 zhun3 one...
i hate heR.
*cRied*
the bus came...
i walked out...
met eunice(NJ)
gave heR a hug with teaRs welling up...
squeezed heR hand... asking heR to take caRe...
not a woRd at all..
walked out...
saw jh..
i fastened my pace...
went to the buses...
took attendance even though i didn't wanted to..
went down the bus to the otheR to check whetheR theRe aRe still any otheR xianyue ppl...
junyi came oveR...
wRapped his aRm aRound me...
if he wasn't fRom HC, i would have hugged him.
i pushed him away and scReamed...
went back to my bus...
*cRied*
went back...
wateveR said by whoeveR didn't get into me..
i took my stuff and went back alone..
talked to jh foR bout an houR and half fRom midnight...
felt betteR...
went to sleep..
woke up...
to see the lifeless eRhu lying on top of my cupboaRd...
tuRned to see the beaRbeaR which Reminded me of jh... and Reminded me of HCJC...
*cRied*
and *cRied*
Received a lot of consoling msges...
including my xianyue ppl who msged me.. asking me to take caRe and telling me i have been a gReat leadeR...
*cRied*
-dun console me, i'll cRy even moRe- |
