deaR diaRy,

i wanted to blog bout 张玉明老师.. been pRocRastinating foR a long time... now i shall...

zls was my eRhu instRuctoR since secondaRy 1...

many ppl did not like him... i was an exception.. haha..

oh well.. although i didn't like him Repeating his same old stoRies... although i didn't like him emphasising on how he wants eveRyone to be gRade 9...

zls gave me a chance to lead...

after i got into a fight in school when i was in pRimaRy 2 (yeah, dun pRovoke me), i was stRipped of my position as a leadeR in class... and i neveR got a chance to lead foR the Rest of my pRimaRy school...

when i was in secondaRy 1, zls chose me to the the leadeR foR the sec 1 eRhu... yeah.. and i still RemembeR moses was the assistant leadeR then...

it was afteR assuming a leadeRship Role then i discoveRed my passion foR leading... haha...

zls tRusted me a lot... he gave me lots of Responsibilities... when i was in uppeR sec, i took chaRge of almost the whole of eRhu... u know? i love it to speak in fRont of all my eRhu ppl... haha... i simply love the attention....

my family was against my leaRning of eRhu... i paid thRough my nose foR the eRhu fees.... zls was Really, a veRy nice teacheR... he knew then that i was skipping meals to pay foR his lessons... and he made me an exception....

i felt gReatly indebted to zls... maybe that was one of his stRategy to make me slave foR him.. haha... afteR geco was set up when i was in sec 4, he made me the secRetaRy cum scoRe manageR... sometimes i felt he was making use of me... cos given my limited skills, he wouldn't have want me in geco... he wanted me to WORK..

suRe enough... my days in geco as i Recalled.. was all about papeRwoRk... i cannot Really RemembeR much bout playing in the oRchestRa.. but images of me photocopying scoRes all night and taking tempeRatuRe foR the membeRs duRing the SARS peRiod Remained cleaR... neveRtheless, i Really enjoyed my days in geco... till deaR came in that is..

afteR deaR got into geco by accident (he came to geco to help me soRt scoRes which gave me a suRpRise), geco was neveR the same foR me again... sometimes i would feel that ppl aRound me will 有意无意间 leave us alone... and i hated that... i hated to be excluded... i felt veRy left out... maybe i was being sensitive then... but i wished at that time that deaR neveR eveR join geco...

blogging bout geco, i must mention ningqi, junkai, shengyong and wanhua... shengyong was my fiRst paRtneR.. afteR he left geco, wanhua became my paRtneR... they made geco pRactices veRy fun... haha... ningqi and junkai loved to bully me... haha... but in that sense, i felt paRt of them... that someone actually notices me... =p junkai is simply adoRable~ i still RemembeR one incident when zls say the eRhu should come in afteR the peRcussion played "kuang", junkai wRote on the scoRe "光" and made all of us laughed so much foR the Rest of the pRac and eveRyone was wondeRing why we weRe laughing so much.. haha... =) these ppl made my geco days veRy enjoyable... =)

bloggin now, i have not been to geco foR almost a yeaR... paRtly cos i think i have Repaid zls by slogging foR him all these yeaRs... paRtly cos i didn't want to be in a all gRade 9 oRchestRa when i was only a gRade 7... i couldn't keep up with the Rest... haiz... but still, deep in my heaRt, i still love geco a lot...

Rozie is coming to take away geco eRhu away fRom me.. i've been using geco eRhu since sec4.. and just like the time i had to RetuRn the school's eRhu to change to geco's eRhu, i'm feeling veRy sad... veRy veRy sad... i'm veRy veRy attached to this eRhu.. i've feelings foR it afteR it's been with me all these yeaRs.. whetheR i'm happy oR sad, i take it out and play.. like ningyi says, eveRything has to go some day... but.. feelings aRe haRd to contRol...

泪眼问花花不语， 乱红飞过去秋千去。