i got this fRom my old open diaRy which i used to wRite in... this was dated 25 maRch 2003.. 2 yeaRs down the Road fRom the entRy.. as i Read this entRy again.. i wondeR... why do i feel pain in my heaRt?

eveRywheRe i go... theRe aRe memoRies of us embeded somewheRe...

fRom the moment i step out of my house... it Reminds me of deAr who will send me Right to my dooRstep once in a while... 2 yeaRs down.. he neveR sent me home again.. not even once..

take a SBS bus... i'll think of deAr who'll always adjust the aiRcon away fRom me the moment we sit down... cos he doesn't want me to catch a cold... 2 yeaRs down.. i adjust the aiRcon myself.. and adjust foR him as well...

it Rains... and i can visualise deAr shelteRing me fRom the Rain... with himself getting all wet yet i'm dRy...

long john silveR... the place wheRe we have OUR meal...

take an MRT... it has alReady become such a Routine that the one houR jouRney fRom east to west does not seems as long as it used to be...

changi aiRpoRt... went theRe befoRe we staRted dating too... deAr wanted to see the station... how magnificent it is...

tampines... deAr will usually accompany me back if he has got the time.. does he? no.. he doesn't..

simei... we watched ouR fiRst movie theRe befoRe we staRted dating... the fiRst time i saw deAr teaRing too! =p we used to go theRe foR bubble tea dRink too... till the shop closed down... we neveR went back again..

bedok... deAr comes and meet me foR dinneR sometimes afteR my tiRing CO pRactice... then we'll go LONG JOHN SILVER foR dinneR... =p also... east coast paRk... ouR PARK... wheRe we counted down to a new day of each yeaR foR the past THREE YEARS... how time flies... the times we saw the shooting staRs.. the times we saw the fiRewoRks... the times duRing geco chalet... the times we went theRe... just to get a feeling of "the times"... also went to deAr's class outing too... feel funny though... cos eveRyone knew me but i dunno them except foR deAr and Rayson... =p of couRse not to foRget... deAr's biRthday! why does going back to the paRk bRings painful sensations now?

kallang... the place we went on ouR second outing... veRy deep impRession on that... cos he told limwei mah... then i was not happy... =p also met peiwen theRe... and she always use that to make fun of me... haha... wheRe ouR BRIDGE exists... wheRe we walk in the Rain... wheRe deAr gave me the Ring... =p the most memoRable was when it was Raining haRd... heez.. seems like it rained many times when we went theRe... =p kallang? it sounds so unfamiliaR to me now... how many yeaRs have i not been theRe? i dunno...

bugis... we always come heRe to shop lah... what else... besides shopping, can't think of anything else we do theRe... maybe the deepest impRession was the fish exibition.. heez... how badly deAr had wanted to buy the goldfish then... but i Refused lah...

cityhall... well... this is wheRe we fiRst met eveR... yeah... to buy pResent foR the giRl he likes then... haha... he was complaining bout *heR* and i was complaining bout *him*... what an iRony that we ended up togetheR... i call it fate... =p also in cityhall... the bRash basah mac... we went theRe to study foR a peRiod of time also... the esplanade... the BRIDGE again... anotheR diffeRent BRIDGE though... went to suntec quite a few times... each time complaining bout his *her*... haha...

dobhy ghaut... ouR fiRst date was heRe... can still RemembeR deAr with the floweR in his hand... haha... guess wheRe we went? NATIONAL LIBRARY BOARD... haha... the pRice one has to pay foR dating a NERD guy.. *OPPS* haha... no lah.. i bRought deAr theRe one... cos he said he neveR go befoRe... also went to foRt canning hill... and the otheR place which i can't RemembeR the name always... and... heez... =p

sommeRset and oRchaRd... anotheR shopping Region too.. we also went once to the botanic gaRdens... veRy nice place... but that day was too hot... yeah... got to see the hospital deAr was boRn.. gleneagles i think... haha... still RemembeR we weRe followed by liling and claRence that time... they caught us Red-handed... but i caught them Red-handed too! heez... then afteR that liling kept making fun of me... then some how... my whole class got to know deAr loh... =p

theRe aRe still many many stops that i have yet to name... so also places like sentosa... we have been theRe i think 3 times... heez... islandeR caRd subscRiption tuRned out to be a waste..

howeveR, deAr has NEVER accompany me ice-skating befoRe... =p he doesn't like ice-skate... so pooR me cannot get him to go with me.. =p he still NEVER accompany me to ice skate... i've almost give up trying to peRsuade him..

Recent hangouts like woodlands.. (go use the libRaRy theRe mah...) also left many memoRies... moRe to the west side... the place i love is bukit gombak... theRe got xiao3 gui4 lin2 mah... so beautiful... deAr took me theRe not long ago... yet it's still as beautiful as eveR... yet anotheR place that i haven't been foR yeaRs..

wheReveR we go... it's deAr that makes me happy... =)

the list of places we left ouR foot pRints on just go on and on...

Right fRom the beginning, i knew that the time will come when the fiRe no longeR buRn as bRightly...

but when the time Really comes... i find it haRd to accept...

what can i do to make the fiRe buRn magnificently once again?