just when we thought things weRe getting betteR...
my mom was Recently in a good mood.. that is.. befoRe we got the letteR...
my dad finally had settled on anotheR job.. moRe oR less financially stable le.. my sis was giving mom money, i haven't took a single cent fRom my mom... so besides the daily household needs and bills, the only one spending lots of money is my bRotheR.. my mom was happy.. finally she had some savings in heR account.. we went shopping befoRe mid-autumn festival.. my dad dRove us to china town.. we enjoyed ouRselves so much..
then this had to happen...
initially we could still calm ouRselves, cos 1 in 10 women had to go foR 2nd checkup.. deaR's mom had 2nd checkup as well.. so we weRe still quite optimistic..
then this had to happen...
my mom was feeling down.. woRRied.. yesteRday while we weRe waiting to see the doc.. my mom told us she's feeling scaRed when she saw a lot of people weaRing hats to hide theiR balding head fRom canceR tReatment.. theRe was actually one oR two ppl weaRing hats.. but still...
she suddenly tuRned to me and said, “阿妹， 你大了。。 会自己赚钱供自己读书， 吃饭。。 现在都不用跟妈妈拿钱了。。 你们两个做姐姐的， 要照顾弟弟。。。。”
imagine how i felt at that instant.. i almost cRied.. =*( of couRse, i swallowed back my teaRs.. nothing was confiRmed.. and no matteR what.. we have to be stRong..
i've been Receving lots of oveRseas calls on my hp.. mainly fRom my aunts and uncles fRom malaysia who called to enquiRe bout my mom's condition.. they didn't want to sound anxious and make my mom woRRy even moRe.. so they called me... of couRse.. my mom kept saying misleading stuff to them, causing lots of misundeRstandings.. i had to cleaR up the misundeRstandings..
my mom has been quiet these few days... and easily aggitated... i dunno what i can do to help.. of couRse i keep telling heR, “不要乱讲话！！ 不会有事的啦！！” but deep down.. i'm Really.. as woRRied as heR...
天有不测之风云， 人有旦夕之祸福。
然则如之何而可？？
唯有感叹: 人生无奈！！
