i cut my haiR...

afteR a good whole yeaR since last dec when i last Rebonded my haiR.. i went to speed to get a quick and cheap cut, since i'll be going foR anotheR cut/tRim and Rebond in mid-dec befoRe my biRthday.. wanted to cut my haiR shoRteR fiRst cos i've been expeRiencing lots of haiR loss causing a bit of balding le.. i cut i-dunno-how-many-inches of my haiR.. fRom waist length Right to the shoRtest being slightly above the shouldeR... V cut, so although the fRont is quite shoRt, the back is still 2-3 inches below the shouldeR.. i felt quite devastated afteR the cut.. unlike guys, i only cut my haiR once a yeaR.. it's always a tRauma foR me to step into a haiR salon... oh well.. the tip of my haiR still has a bit of Rebonded paRt.. but those on top of my head aRe veRy messy le... waiting foR the Rebonding in dec to Rid of those cuRls.. geneRally not veRy satisfied with the cut.. somehow keep feeling that one side is longeR than the otheR.. think the haiRdResseR still quite gReen.. aRgh.. shan't keep thinking bout haiR...

anotheR papeR down yesteRday... yet anotheR open book exam.. biocomp.. the module i hate.. howeveR, the papeR was Relatively easy to manage... now i actually pRefeR open book exams.. no need to memoRise, test on concepts.. good foR ppl like me with no memoRising bRains.. the essay question distuRbed me though... 3C2.. i chose a wRong question.. i did halfway then Realised i couldn't do the otheR half.. then also Realised that i could actually do the otheR question i didn't choose.. but too late... 5 mins to end of exam, i didn't have time to Redo.. then i just left the last paRt blank.. neveRtheless, i'm not too woRRied bout that.. i should have done quite well foR the pRoject.. and i think this is going to be one of the betteR modules this sem that i might scoRe in.. dun think i'm going to get any A this sem.. hoRRible modules.. =( CAP has been dRopping and dRopping.. i shall just maintain it above 3.0 since i have no plans to go on honouRs.. (just my way of consoling myself and excusing myself fRom the pooR gRades..) haiz... sianz...

these 2 days will be mugging foR 2 moRe papeRs then i'll be done... a big thanx to shan shan foR the mugging sessions, though we've become quite slack this sem.. the aiRpoRt staff canteen 2 no longeR allow students to study.. so we had to study in mac instead.. but we can't possibly sit theRe whole day and eat mac eveRyday Right? uh.. ok ok.. i ate ice cReam almost eveRyday we went mugging theRe.. no wondeR i put on weight le.. =(

i've been quite distRacted this sem... no mood to study.. no discipline.. no motivation... keep thinking bout the holidays... thinking bout HK tRip.. bout Rebonding my haiR.. bout getting a job to eaRn money foR the hols.. bout tuition kids... anything BUT study... sianz...

*smacks self* wake up!! buck up!!

haiz...

feeling quite depRessed lately... mood swing? maybe...

i feel like going to the beach and scReam like i neveR scReam befoRe... feel like going ice skating... feel like going settleRs' cafe and laugh my lungs out again...

must be exams depRession... i must have been stRessed up.. pimples outbReak is one good evidence.. but somehow it can't be!! i REALLY do not feel STRESS at all.. peRhaps only 10 mins befoRe the exams then will i feel anxiety.. befoRe and afteR that... i dun Really caRe..

somebody ask me out afteR exams k? not kbox please.. i'm not in the mood to sing.. hopefully some low cost activity.. i'm still saving foR my HK tRip..

i need some excitement in my life... being with a oveRly-quiet and unemotional and boRing and unexciting and unRomantic peRson is bad enough... i feel like all those emotions embedded in me aRe going to buRst out... i think i'm going cRazy...

i need to cRy...

at times when i Really feel like cRying, i can't help but ask... why? why am i going thRough this alone? =*(