upon Ronglun's Request to check out addResses of two fRiends, i dug out my old old autogRaph book... that's the good thing bout autogRaph books... yeaRs lateR, u can still find uR fRiends as long as they haven't moved...

theRe was this "tRadition" of giving ppl to wRite in an autogRaph book.. i have 3, in fact.. 1 fRom pRimaRy school.. 2 fRom secondaRy school.. fRiends whom i know long enough like chenchin had to wRite 3 times in 3 sepaRate autogRaph books.. haha.. these books Remind me of the fRiends i made in vaRious stages of my life..

i was a veRy fRank and mischievious student.. that's the way i am.. i am not a peRson who hide my feelings... back in secondaRy school, i was close with the teacheRs.. cos i always feel teacheRs aRe matuRe enough to undeRstand my pRoblems and woRRies.. and well.. i had nice teacheRs!!

i was flipping thRough the autogRaph book since i skipped lessons today to compose MIDI foR science of music.. Read the messages left by all my fRiends then.. some of them, i'm guilty to say.. have lost contact with them le.. some otheRs, we'Re still as close as eveR.. but what they have in common.. eveRyone says i'm talkative... (-_-")

a veRy familiaR handwRiting wRiting in chinese caught my eye.. i was Right.. it's mdm goh yee bin.. my chinese teacheR foR sec 3 and 4... foRm teacheR of sec 3/4? can't RemembeR le.. she used to make us wRite weekly jouRnal to impRove ouR chinese.. we could wRite anything we like.. and i would always wRite my deep inneR thoughts in theRe.. like once i had a cold waR with Roz oveR CO matteRs (which caused us to be not as close since.. but luckily things became betteR few yeaRs lateR).. like how we lost in SYF... like Family gatheRing with steamboat at ah gong's (zhongxiao) house.. like my family pRoblems.. like peRsonal pRoblems.. like woRRying oveR exams... and even stuff like BGR.. heh.. told u.. i'm a veRy fRank and stRaightfoRwaRd peRson...

as i Read thRough what she said.. many stuff came back to my mind... i typed out an extRact of it... ( ) aRe stuff i added my own..


"亲爱的秀婷：

其实拿到了你的纪念册， 我都不知道要写什么才好。 因为该写得都在你的周记本中写了， 而该说的也都在上课时有意无意中也说了(i know.. eveRytime she said something, she'll 瞄我一眼.. i know.. she was diRecting to me.. )。 到现在真的是“词穷”了。

你记得吗？ 在分给你们的周记中， 每次我都会写上几句， 但在你的最后一次周记中， 我却一个字也写不出。 因为我真不晓得如何替你排忧解难！

总 觉得你有着与你年龄不相的忧郁， 看到你总是郁郁寡欢的样子， 少了应有的笑容， 你知道吗？ 那天成绩公布后(chinese Results out.. i got my A1 and distinction in oRal!! only 3 people in my class got distinction in oRal woR!! =p)， 英文口试也考完后， 我总算看到了你较欢欣的笑容， 露出了洁白的牙齿， 让我也感染了你内心的喜悦， 这不是很好吗？ 希望你往后也能多笑笑。

你还记得吗？有一天早上在礼堂时， 你坐在地上， 那时刚好打钟了， 你要求我拉你一把， 当我把你拉起时， 我说了一句，那就是：“如果你自己不想站起来的话， 无论什么人拉你， 你都不会站起来的。”

这句话是什么意思， 聪明如你，不用我说， 我相信你也会很清楚。 是吗？... ... "

i neveR foRget that day.. it was a noRmal like usual... must have been a Rainy day that's why we had assembly in the hall... i went eaRly and sat down in the hall waiting foR the bell to Ring... she came by.. and just nice the bell Rang... i was lazy to stand up.. so i just said foR fun and asked heR to pull me up.. she did... and said those woRds theRe.. i undeRstood entiRely what she was dRiving at.. and at that moment, theRe was a Rush of emotions in me..

if i could choose a teacheR which changed my life most... it would definitely be heR.

she's Really a veRy nice teacheR... i RemembeR when it was neaRing the chinese O levels, sutee and i was pRepaRing veRy haRd foR it.. we bought assessments book and do togetheR.. a bit eveRyday.. and wRote lots of pRactice compostitions.. few days befoRe exams.. we actually called up mdm goh and asked heR to help us.. and she agReed! and so on a satuRday, sutee and i met heR at mac donalds of tampines maRt.. wheRe she went thRough ouR compositions and gave us valuable tips... =)

if i eveR become a teacheR, she will be my Role modal!