i'm unhappy...

i'm feeling lousy...


had 3 tuition sessions today, as with all fRidays... having fRiday fRee fRom school doesn't give me moRe time to Rest... at each session with my students, i Realised that all 3 of them aRe getting slack bout bio... though theiR pRelims have alReady staRted... am i giving them too much confidence? at each session, i just feel like going on and on the whole day to make suRe they know eveRy single bit that i know... but at the same time, i feel so tiRed to go on... i'm tiRed... Really tiRed...

going foR the life sciences caReeR faiR tmR... hopefully, it gives me some insight bout my caReeR plans when i gRaduate next sem... though i'm not Really being optimistic bout my futuRe... and somehow i feel like despite my Reluctance to be a teacheR once i gRaduate, the chances of it Really happening is like... 80%?? i'm not confident bout getting a job in the life sciences industRy with my gRades...

NATAS tRavel faiR fRom 29Sep to 1Oct in EXPO.. admission fee $3... may be going with deaR... since it's the mid-teRm bReak and we've alReady agReed on going to book the package duRing the bReak afteR we go scouting in people's paRk... oh.. i think i haven't mention this befoRe...

we'Re going taiwan!! ok... i'm actually not supposed to say this... but knowing my chaRacteR, i dun think i can hide it fRom anyone... but dun expect souveniRs fRom me this time Round k? i dunwan it to be like hongkong tRip, in which i spent 90% of the shopping time shopping foR gifts foR my fRiends... deaR can testify to that.. i ended up buying few stuff foR myself and i totally RegRetted it... oh well...

this tRip is meant to be a celebRation tRip to celebRate my 21st biRthday.. (yeah! finally it's going to be my tuRn!!) RatheR than having to attend sutee's paRty on my biRthday, since i'm not having a chalet/paRty, might as well spend the money and go oveRseas... planning to RetuRn on 17th so that i can at least meet up with sutee on heR biRthday itself... sometimes i think i'm being too nice.. haha..

not going into details of the tRip... it may not even come tRue... planning's still in pRogRess.. and it's much moRe difficult to plan cos it's a big place and we'Re going foR quite long... (ok, not long to you but to me..) will update bout this again...

oh yah... i saw and tRied a pRetty little yellow dRess the otheR day... i loved it!! i've always wanted to get a dRess but couldn't find one i like/ doesn't make me look fat... and i found it!! costs bout $40, not to ex... but deaR foRbids me to buy cos he says it's too Revealing and will attRact too much unwanted attention fRom guys... =x aRgh.. well... too bad....


weekends aRe no longeR bout meeting deaR and enjoying ouRselves... fRidays, satuRdays and sundays aRe all tuition whole days...... i no longeR look foRwaRd to weekends...

weekdays aRe only bout school, lessons and libRaRy.... just wednesday, i went to wateR and talk to my plants foR 1+ houR cos i was feeling down... even when deaR meet me foR long houRs in school, we baRely talk... he's the kind of peRson who once he staRts studying, he's going to ignoRe you till he's done... so effectively, i dun feel like he was with me... aRgh... he has so much tutoRial to do and life sciences is so slack with little/ no tutoRial.. it's just so boRing.. i'm losing my motivation...


想到海边去吹吹风。。。

难过的时候， 偶尔也会流泪。。。

不想去擦拭， 就任由泪水滑落。。。

寂寞 - 是你在我的身边, 而我却无法感觉你的存在。。。