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Thursday, September 14, 2006

i wish he could stay neaReR to my home...

at least i would have company on the 1.5hRs long Ride home eveRyday... at least if we go out on weekends, someone would be by my side pRotecting me when i go home late... at least duRing the 7th lunaR month, i dun feel so afRaid of going home alone...

i just wish...

if only wishes come tRue...





i've been keeping online diaRy foR at least 5 yeaRs le... be it in opendiaRy oR in bloggeR, i have been diligently updating my life in the viRtual woRld...

but now... as the fRequency of blogging gets lesseR and lesseR, i'm wondeRing, am i ageing pRematuRely? hmm... oR has my life become so mundane such that theRe is nothing foR me to update about?

sometimes i feel Really soRRy foR myself...

i have no life. even my students go clubbing/pubbing at the age of 17... and me? not that i like that kind of place.. but i just feel like going out to see the woRld.. =x u know what i mean... i'm veRy sensitive to peeR pRessuRe.. when i go out with fRiends, they bRing me to many places that i'll neveR actually go on my own oR with deaR... most of the time, i'm so mountain toRtoise that i'm even ashamed of myself foR the lack of knowledge in eveRything... i feel like a social failuRe...

now that deaR has joined me in uni, it's woRse... we used to go east coast a lot duRing weekends night... we used to go exploRing places we've neveR been befoRe... we would go sentosa now and then, get on the tRam and Rock one Round aRound sentosa... but now... we no longeR go anywheRe else otheR than centRal lib... i feel so sick... i dunwan to tell ppl that my life now Revolves aRound centRal libRaRy... that if i'm not having tuition sessions, u can find me in centRal lib mugging.... he may be a muggeR, but i'm not!

maybe i wun feel so bad if i'm at least good in my studies... unfoRtunetely, i'm not... sometimes i feel i'm a good-foR-nothing...

i'm feeling Really awful Right now...

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