i went lec today and he sat beside me as usual...

minutes into the lectuRe...

him: "hey, 你没事吧？ 怎么今天怪怪的？"

me: "huh... 没有啦..."

duRing the 10 minutes lectuRe bReak...

him: "ay, 真的没事吗？今天怎么那么安静？　有点不对劲。。　很 stRess 啊?"

me: "huh... 没有啦... 你说我平时很吵拉！"

end of lectuRe, befoRe leaving the LT...

him: "不要那么 stRess!"

me: (勉强的笑）

i myself aRen't suRe whetheR i was Really stRess oR had i become indiffeRent to him... suRe, i'm a bit stRess cos i feel i'm not pRepaRed foR the immuno test next thuR yet (though in past sems i'll only staRt studying next wed) and will not have enough time to study.. a bit woRRied cos i Really Really want to do well this sem... but then again... i must admit i suddenly find myself loss foR woRds... i dunno what to say to him... i'm usually a veRy chatty peRson (as u guys should know)..

but since that incident, i dunno how to face him anymoRe... Really, shouldn't he be the one who doesn't know how to face me? weiRd. but anyway, whateveR he do now puts me off... like copying notes fRom me when he didn't catch what the lectuReR was saying... i still can't get out of it.. gosh... i wish i didn't see anything then... why must this happen? maybe u think i am just 小题大做-ing... but...

he betRayed my tRust in him...

i think i'll need a long time to get oveR this....

on anotheR note, my pRoject mates foR gendeR studies aRe lovely!! this is the fiRst pRoject i eveR have (i think, can't Really RemembeR) foR an aRts module, and my my... these ppl aRe so fun to be with... =p doing pRoject with science ppl just sux lah... but theRe's a veRy obvious diffeRence between sci and aRts ppl doing pRoject discussion... aRts ppl tend to dRag and dRag and dRag... they make it like they have all the time in the woRld... while sci ppl (oh well, me!) tend to want to do things fast... chop chop... get it oveR and done with...

a pRoject discussion with sci ppl can finish in 30 minutes, a pRoject discussion with aRts ppl actually took me 3 houRs... and thRoughout the meeting, i had to push them in advancing.. i.e. what we have to settle, who do what by when.. foRmat of essay.. if i dun, they'll just keep on discussing and discussing and discussing the neveR ending issues... still, discussion with them is fun... =) theRe's a lot of laughteR.. (sci pRoject usually ends with black faces) and i think ouR pResentation is going to be enteRtaining... hehe...

i have managed to meet up wen, shan and Ronglun individually.. heh... though all weRe just shoRt meetups.. betteR than nothing Right? at least i made the effoRt to do so... but shan, expect moRe nudging fRom me to go mugging togetheR... =p it's just amazing how some fRiends, though u haven't meet them foR veRy long, u will still feel close to them... and u can be just uRself.... even though both of u just sit theRe and not talk, u dun feel awkwaRd at all! =)

and you deaR... u've been such a daRling... thank you foR the wondeRful company foR the yeaR end oveRseas tRip... thank you foR beaRing with my mood swings and foR meeting me foR 5 weekdays a week in school to soothe my insecuRities... wouldn't know what to do without u.... thanx foR eveRything deaR... *huGz*

talking bout the tRip.. tickets have been issued.. Rainbow hotel in taipei is confiRmed but not doRsett seaview in hongkong... one pRob though... Rainbow hotel cannot be located on the 4 oR 5 taipei maps that we got... -_-" oh well.. we've got the addRess at least... dunwan to woRRy bout that now... my pRioRities now is still studies...

i seRiously need facial foR my makeup oveRdosed-face!! any Recommendations fRom anyone?