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Tuesday, April 17, 2007



i was so excited afteR Receiving the call yesteRday...

deaR even dRove me home to take some foRmal weaR, my makeup set, foRmal shoes and a decent handbag then dRove me back to hall last night...

i spent an houR putting on the makeup with my best effoRt, dolled myself to be my most pResentable self and even (believe it oR not) pRactised smiling in fRont of the miRRoR...

went down to oRchaRd 2 houRs eaRlieR.. had lunch... looked foR the place way befoRe time then pondeRed aRound cos i was still too eaRly... bout 20 minutes befoRe the agReed time, i decided to be eaRly to make an impRession.. just 5 minutes walking distance away fRom the office, i saw this message..

"... you don't have to come down anymoRe since you can only staRt in may.. good luck foR uR studies.. "

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disappointment is wRitten all oveR my face...

i felt so depRessed.. i Replied telling heR i could staRt once my exams end.. and she Replied..

"i'm soRRy but my colleague told me all the cuRRent jobs foR uni gRads RequiRe expeRience.."

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how am i going to gain expeRience if no one is willing to give me a chance?

=(





just checked my exam venues... 4 out of 5 papeRs will be in LABs. yuck. i hate taking papeRs in the lab. the chaiR keeps Rolling about. the only one that is not in the lab is the gek mod, foRensic science. sianz. =(




i haven't been studying at all foR the past 3-5 days... dunno what i'm doing.. basically spend my afteRnoons playing DOTA with deaR coaching me.. =x that's why i dun like to tRy a new game.. i get addicted veRy easily...

no mood to study at all...

so what if i get all As? so what if i get all Cs? i'll still be gRaduating with the same degRee... i'll still not be able to find a job.. =(



thailand tRip is out of talk now... my savings is dying.. if i can't find a job soon, i may have to staRt eating my own species (xiaocao)... =(

but hopefully the june bintan tRip foR deaR's celebRation is still gonna woRk out some way...




on a happieR note, i got A+ foR phaRmaco CA3! =) even though maybe bout 60% of the cohoRt got an A and above..

and i got 88/100 foR biotech last lab RepoRt.. which gives me a total of bout 21 oR 22 out of 25 foR the CA maRks.. =)




i need motivation.... a lot of it...



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