afteR being toRmented physically and mentally foR the past few weeks since mom was hospitalised, erm.. no.. things aRe still quite the same...
to cut a long stoRy shoRt,
my mom is diagnosed with Systemic Lupus Erythematosus (SLE, commonly known as butteRfly disease) and Sjogren's Syndrome.
is is an auto-immune disease.
it is a disease with no cuRe.
it is a disease that my mom will have to take medication foR life.
AND i was told that it is heReditaRy.
to top it all, i just had a Relative died of SLE.
my mom has Resigned.. she is just not quite in the state to woRk..
the medications aRe helping to contRol the inflammation a little, but otheR side effects aRe showing...
i feel so helpless...
on the last night of my mom's hospitalisation, i hugged mom.. it's the fiRst time since i can eveR RemembeR.. and i still RemembeR feeling so touched afteR that that i teaRed when i left the hospital.. when was the last time u hugged youR paRents? do not wait until you do not have the chance to anymoRe... cheRish youR family...
eveR since then, i'll touch my mom's hands eveRyday, caRessing heR hands.. making suRe they aRen't swollen.. making suRe they aRen't Red... i'll look at heR face... gently touch heR cheek if it's swollen.. look at heR lips.. hoping heR ulceRations will get betteR... my heaRt sinks when i wake up eveRy moRning and see heR sleeping on the sofa in the living Room in pain...
but what can i do?
i feel so helpless...
2007 hasn't been a good yeaR... i didn't do veRy well in my studies.. i dun get well with colleagues at woRk.. i have pRoblems with my Relationship, fRiendship and now my family...
foR 2008, please..
my paRents' health is all that matteRs now.
